I know, I'm a slacker on here...I've just been so busy, so tired, and so go go go that I really haven't had time to post on what I'm feeling or going through.
This past week was the most emotionally draining. The cat is officially out of the bag (minus work, of course) to all of our family and most of our friends. It's so exciting telling people that we're pregnant, but at the same time, sort of awkward, and completely overwhelming. I have no clue why I feel that way...maybe my socially awkward Engineering side comes out when it comes to baby news. I half way think I'm worried about people's reactions, so I mentally brace myself for all different scenarios, which is completely and utterly exhausting.
Everyone was so excited for us, although most were pretty surprised that I had waited till 13 weeks to tell them. I'm not a good phone person, and I knew I'd see most people the very next week after my 12 week appointment, so I just wanted to wait to tell everyone in person. We've waited so long to even try to have kids, and we're only pregnant for the first time once, so I really wanted it to be something I did face-to-face to as many people as possible. Sorry to any family / friends who's feelings I hurt!! Trust me though, if I would've told you on email or a phone call, I would've immediately gone MIA because I've just been too exhausted to do much more than work and try to function in my day to day life.
I did help throw a baby shower this past weekend, and luckily I got up some energy to do some decorating things before that. It's so fun to be able to share this experience with someone who's 3 months ahead of me!
I'm starting to get my energy back, although I'm still not able to function at the go-go-go pace that I'm used to. My appetite is getting better too, but moreso in the fact that I'm just hungry a lot. I'm still pretty picky about what I want to eat.
I'm not sure how Chris puts up with me most days. I don't really know what I want to eat, I just know what I DON'T want to eat. If we don't have anywhere special to be, I look like I got ran over by a train - is bed head considered a style? If so, that's my style as of lately.
My morning sickness has pretty much passed, although I still do get nauseous from time to time. In its place, I have these excruciating all day headaches a few times a week that I can't get rid of. I took a regular strength Tylenol, and that was the equivalent of throwing a glass of water at a burning building, so I'm just trying to ignore them. Mind over matter, right? Errr...cept when your mind is throbbing!!!
I go through a plethora of emotions on a daily basis. I'm excited, scared, happy, sad, frantic, calm, and many more emotions all at the same time. I think this second trimester is supposed to get better with everything, so I'm hoping that helps with my emotions. Overall, I'm overwhelmed with excitement and anticipation, but every other emotion in between comes out on a daily basis.
The crazy vivid dreams have started happening here and there. I get confused when I wake up as to where I really am and what just really happened. The line between reality and dream land are kind of blurred. The dreams are just ... so REAL.
I am starting to show a bit in my regular clothes, but not enough to look pregnant. I just look like I've developed a wee bit of a beer gut. Perfect :-). I always wondered how the beer gut style would look on me, and now I've got my answer!
I have pregnant brain like you wouldn't believe. I can't remember things, I tell the same story more than once to the same person (and only realize it because of their face reactions...most people are too kind to tell me to shush it), I lose things, I'm constantly scatter brained, etc, etc.. Last night at my volleyball game, one of the guys came up and gave me a high 5 after the play was over and said "Great job, that was awesome", and I had to ask him what I did because I already forgot. Immediately. It's just that fast. I guess I'm living in the immediate now, no past what-so-ever.
As far as Baby H goes, he/she is now about the size of my clenched fist, and is developing hair this week. Hmm...maybe some peach fuzz...I'm pretty sure Baby H is going to be a bald baby like his/her Momma and Daddy were!
Sorry that I don't have any pictures with this post...I'll take some soon showing off my belly and post them. That is, if I remember!!!
Off to go find something ... what I'm not sure ... I already forgot what I lost. Besides my sanity, and I can't find that anywhere!!
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